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it’s amazing how much more healthy I feel mentally than I did even a year ago. I look back at things I wrote back then, and think about all the art and poetry I destroyed, and I can’t even remember what I was thinking. all I can say is, praise God that I sleep better here than anywhere, and that I can think with a head that isn’t clouded with all the death and loss that affected me so badly in the past. I think I probably would have truly stopped eating and sleeping all together if certain people hadn’t been in my life. you know who you are. God really must love me to bring me out of all of that and to put me in the lives of people who truly care. I owe Him a lot. much more than I care to admit.